With my doctor!

Made the decision tonight. Liberating!!!

Found out the other day there is a small clinic here that's separate but
still part of the VA. They offer the REM trauma treatment, which they DO NOT OFFER at the regular hospital and she has not bothered to mention it to me FOR A YEAR AND A HALF.

Enough is enough.

This is the doctor who told me I had to learn to control my disorder. If
you know anything about Dissociative Identity Disorder, once called
Multiple Personality Disorder, you understand how ridiculous that is.
As in, if you could control it, you wouldn't have it, you meandering
moron. She is the VA's leading expert on DID.

Help me, Jesus.

I would rather ride 120 miles each way in a VA van to the closest VA in a large city where they have actual experts. And that cool MRI machine
that can measure your memory loss.

And I'm pretty sure one of the tribe slipped out and rescheduled our last
appointment because I have no memory of doing it. I will not have this
person destroy all the progress I've made. Because my bad alter is primed for a confrontation. And I'm not going to set myself up. One of
the others tangles with her, guess who goes to jail. And loses their care
and maybe my meds. That would be bad.

Wish me luck. I'm gonna need it.