Tough one. I never had the desire to go back to my husband. Our marriage was dead from the beginning so I have not gone tgrough any guilt or regrets leaving & wiuldn't have even before I finally left.....but there was no love in the marriage to have ever based the relationship on & there never was a good relationship. There were good times but those were NEVER because of our good relationship. My memory goes back to the events but he is only on the periphery (totally in the shadows) of what made it a good time.

The thing is that no matter what the reason (yiu ir him) that you can't deal & become totally unhappy around him, you are only making you, but him miserable & leaving is the best option since yiu haven't been able to resolve the priblem by this point.

Who knows what the future holds? For me the last 11 years of living alone have told me that alone us wonderful (yes still legally married until this mess of a divorce & marriage assets battle is over)....but not about to get back into any relationship any time soon....have friends & activities filling my life & much more rewarding than a relationship so seems point if view may help. I am less lonely now (alone) than I was in my marriage.

Hope you can sort through your thoughts so you can feel peace with your decision.