I don't know if it ever goes away - it certainly doesn't seem like it ever will.

Even if it does, the side effects may not. My T has hurt me so badly and lied to me so many times and broken my trust into a million tiny pieces so often that I don't know if I will EVER be able to trust and open up to another T. I think they could swear until the cows come home that they would never do what my T did to me and I would always feel like "that's what he said" and be afraid to show them all of me and tell them everything because sooner or later I'd be right back where I am now - in terrible pain and wishing I didn't exist.