Having a difficult time off and on the last week or two. T almost hospitalized me for safety.
T let’s me call her anytime. PrevT says she is out for a week but I’m allowed to email even when I get her automated ‘away’ message. She said she will read emails once in a while during the week she is gone.

I’m very appreciative! But how many people does it take just to keep me going? It’s embarrassing.

Was depressed yesterday and my mind ran through all the people thru my life who have treated me as if I have no value. No wonder I hate myself. But I stopped and made myself think of people who DO value me, my daughter, grandson, PrevT and T.

Also, we found out my daughter has the same heart condition I have. She’s having surgery June 8th to implant a pacemaker/defibrillator. My grandson is autistic. I need to take care of them. I will do it. I might not do it perfectly, but I will do it.