I'm compliant with meds and have (I guess) a normal mood for up to (maybe) 10 days at a time. Maybe sometimes longer...sort of. But even with the normal mood there's a slight feeling of depression, and I'm very tired and would like to sleep for the day. Sometimes I think about dropping my Lamictal altogether so I'll be hypomanic and feel great. But if I do that I'll also get hostile, which causes it's own problems. Plus I might go up into mania itself, then I have to re-start the whole med thing.