how do they expect us to take these **** pills and blindly set by while the remainder of my mind gets flushed down the drain ... the feeling ( or really lack of any feeling ) , followed by the uncontrolled emotions , mostly crying ... was at a neighbors funeral wed and I cried ... not for him but because the flowers were so beautiful ..

. I cry at the news ...and have thoughts of pealing the skin off these monsters the news bring into our homes every night ... usually don't watch ... but did today ... mistake ...

when I was deathly into the black at least I felt something ... ever if was all negative ... the anexity is the worst ... with out that I think I could survive ... ( med free ) ... at least when I am down I have a reason ... a plan ... a desire to look foward to "something" ... now .. just dishwater .... luke warm and useless ... my biggest dream is looking foward to the next meal

just *****ing ... my turn you know ... be well my friends ... the Tigger loves you ... now if I could just love me ... ...