how do you guys say such deep thoughtful things? My mind is so jumbled and wacky that i sound like a dork. I have read some amazing and interesting thoughts since I've been posting here. Don't misunderstand me, yall have made me think outside my little box of a brain and that is good. I just keep thinking man, why didn't I think of that or I would like to write meaningful poetry, even have a good conversation. When I'm w/family I'm not heard because, in my minds eye, I'm just not interesting. I'm so alone w/my thoughts and watch diff shows than they do. Plus, I don't work. I love to make greeting cards, since this is relaxing but I need a craft table and supplies. Money keeps me from this. See, my mind cannot stay on track. Tonight is especially confusing. My knees hurt and I go from laying on the couch to sitting in my rocker. My mind is going like a race car. Who can I call? What can I do? Where can I go? I don't drive after dark if possible because I do not have any sense of direction. This is true, I get lost in the mall. ha Anyway, sorry my post are so long, i'm confused and lonesome and I need someone to hug me and say i love you. I miss that the most...I guess that's it, the word "LOVE" Why does it elude me, where is it, please tell me.