Thanks, Lemon. It's more that I keep bothering him. I should have just sent the long e-mail I typed up (sober) yesterday after session instead of saying I would bring it to session. Part of it was in the e-mail I sent him last night, but I wrote and told him not to respond to that e-mail, so he'll likely take me at my word and not respond (instead of reading between the lines...). Well, unless he reads the drunk e-mail first and responds before noticing my "ignore that!" e-mail.

But I'm really struggling with a lot of this stuff...Yeah, I see him Monday, but that seems far off somehow... I was hoping yesterday would be a reassuring session for me, that we could talk about transference and it would be OK, but it just kind of made me more insecure...since he seemed reluctant to talk about it (even though his e-mail response to me yesterday afternoon said he didn't mean to imply that it wasn't OK to talk about our relationship).