LT

You've said he has not much experience with it so of course he would be a bit uncomfortable. Imagine you in that position. First time experiencing intense attachment would probably make you feel that way too. Maybe you are too attached, who knows? I can't talk because I'm beyond help with mine. I already know I will spiral when I have to quit therapy.

At least he is comfortable enough to still allow 2x a week. That's a good sign. If you personally feel you are too much, you can ask him or just set your own limits. I do the set my own limits. I am free to contact my T as often as I want but I wont do it more than 1x a week and maybe try a week with 1 session again and see how you do?

Otherwise again, I wouldn't worry too much. He's handling things well for someone with not much experience with this.

There's been times for me when I've feel gross or creepy or weird to him... just by things he has said and done... I've projected my own "feelings" on to things and it's been bad... but I try to think of all the good things and how if he was truly weirded out by me in any way, he would surely not be putting up with me as much and as well as he does.

I'd say the same for your T. It's new, it's uncomfortable for him, but he's handling it really well. Worst case scenario, if he does feel weird about it... so what? It comforts you, it helps you and it makes sense to you, therapy is about you and how you feel about it is most important.

I wont even tell you the "weird" stuff I do with my T things, well at least not publicly. I feel crazy nuts but I am to the point where I just casually tell him anyway and we both just go on like nothing happened. Hopefully you get there too.