I want to come see you today.

But I will sit with this, do my own 'holding', it's not anything bad it's just uncomfortable to feel this younger part of me that's holding firmly onto you like a kid with my arms around your ankles crying "don't leave me don't leave me I'll never leave you I want to be with you forever I love you you're the only one who makes me feel like I am enough."

I had to feel way back and pretty deep to find that, t. Now I need to figure out how to just hold it and know it and accept it. And maybe, let it go? Can I let it go?