I call it pig-headed stubborn.
It seems to just cause more pain and stress. Oh well.
I think it is something along the lines that it is easier to deal with a known than an unknown, even if that known is a terrible thing. At least that is from my perspective where I have a list of bad things with no known causes. Maybe it is a 'grass is greener' situation.
I hope you have a good day.
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PDD with Psychotic Features, GAD, Cluster C personality traits - No meds, except a weekly ketamine infusion