Not initially no. The first time I did was after talking about CSA for the first time and I was in a bit of a state. It took me about 5 minutes to ask her with her sitting patiently at the end of her seat and telling me I was worthy and telling me to ask for what I need. When I finally asked for a cuddle I was convinced she would say no and immediately said sorry and got up to leave and she just stood up and opened her arms to me. It was one of the most healing feelings I have had. I put my head on her shoulder and just felt so loved. She cuddled me for about 5 minutes and gently stroked me back.
She also pulled me in for a hug on her sofa when I discussed a particularly horrible violent episode and I just rested my head on her chest for the rest of the session and she gently rocked me. I just remember hearing her heart beat and feeling so safe.
We also cuddle at the end of every session.
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