Lately all types of relationships have been taking a major impact on my functioning. I feel like I lack attraction to everybody I'm unsure why that is. I stay in a relationship right now due to the fear of being alone even though I don't enjoy it. I also am in a bunch of horrible friendships. I've lost 3 friends of 12 years because I'm just bad. All my friends find someone more exciting or relatable and replace me even after all that time. I know people only like me due to the mere exposure effect of me being around. No one enjoys talking to me, hanging out with me (they'd rather sleep), they replace me, I'm always there for their problems but once its mine they throw me out, etc. It's not just one bad friend its every single person I've met in my lifetime. I feel so bad like I'm messing up or socially awkward, even regret what I say. I don't know why I'm not likeable? It even brings down my esteem, maybe its my appearance? Even when im friendly and go up to randoms and chat with them at school they immediately get up and move away...