So, mania has evolved. I'm now awaiting a new bicycle and cell phone, both being paid for on time but with no interest. I do really need a bike to save gas and because my old car is barely running at all and getting 6 miles per gallon. You did read that correctly. Six. I'd sell it completely but my psych team is in another city, 25 miles away.
I am developing a relationship with a squirrel. As long as I'm wearing the same hat, he'll come up about a foot away and sit down if everyone else is quiet nearby. Maybe it's my imagination, but he does seem to recognize me. Right now he's back in the tree. I'll get a pic sometime but he usually leaves once I get my phone out and stop looking into his eyes.
I'm trying very hard to be more social but also trying even harder not to drink. I'm doing ok on the first one, and perfectly on the second, though the urge is quite strong.
So is that other urge that usually goes with mania, the physical one. I'm not even touching myself because I don't want to push the stimulation. I don't know if that's a good idea or not.
I feel like everything is so HARD in life but so beautifully so. That makes perfect sense to me. You?
Food is incredibly delicious. I have to force myself to not eat constantly, especially coffee and chocolate and chocolate in coffee!
I'm still working out and still practicing yoga.
Thinking about my parents today sent me into a really messed up panic mode, as did my ex last night only she got full on flashbacks in my remembering of her.
So other than money problems, I'm kind of handling it ok. It could be much worse.
I think my friend is avoiding me but claiming to be sick. I go up and there's always a "do not disturb" on her door. So I really don't know because I haven't been able to see her. I still message her and she sometimes responds, claiming the illness.