Exploring nature doesn't help since it’s temporary
Exercising neither since I can’t eat well
As for music, I have no idea what to listen to

I lack company, I have no friends to support me and I am just losing more than I’m earning friends
Some of my past friends are also not that great anymore
But it’s not like my life is that great anyways, especially with people of bad influence.
I am really considering doing absolutely nothing with my life, rather than oblige myself to study for “success” with nothing colorful to fill my life - no friends, no hobbies to share with anyone
And I also hate mental health treatment since the entire concept seems to scorn clients, in and out of treatment, making them weaker instead of stronger