I don't know what is the best thing to say right now, but are you just longing acceptance? Your squirrel likes you regardless of the specie difference and my impression is you can be yourself around the creature and not judged.

When I'm hypo, I'm confident in speaking to people, which is if you have the chance, speak to a therapist or similar.

Whatever reasons, jotting stuff down really helps.

If I've noticed something about forums like this, is we don't marinate on one answer, statement, etc.

Peace