As a rapid cycle at 50....if not medicated...I still suffer from anxiety, high highs, glee, intensity, superiority, high sexual drive,....all the fun things of mania and the unfun mixes like paranoia, agitation, anger, rage....they also trigger my alters that holds them emotions or beings.

I was wondering waiting/hoping for this to happen.... to chill out and maybe less bipolarish. I can feel the cycles even though I’m medicated....but a more subdued thing being I don’t want to be stupored