hey t. i'm getting all kinds of opportunities to practice that emotional regulation stuff lately. like this morning. i got dressed and looked in the mirror. why do i keep doing that? i wanted to cry. i don't understand it. i almost started crying. i didn't, because i did some positive self-talk and took some deep breaths and reminded myself that i'm eating healthy, walking, drinking water all the stuff i'm supposed to be doing so whatever tricks my brain is playing on me are just that. tricks. i need to pay much more attention to how i feel.

oh hell. i'm failing. i'm going to cry anyway. wth is wrong with me?!