Mental illness can be very tough on us, as well as those around us. Yet, it can get better. It can get better. It can get better!
It sounds like you may need a new pdoc. Are there other pdocs available?
I understand you went IP in February. Sometimes, people find it helpful to go again.
Is there an intensive outpatient program (IOP) nearby and is IOP participation an option?
Can your therapist help you in exploring your options?
Please keep posting. It's a slow night here, yet will pick up, have patience. Others will be along to comment.
You express yourself very well, which is often at least half of the battle in seeking help. I have faith that life can get better for you!

WC