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Originally Posted by Colleen007
I find this very interesting. I will be 59 in July, and have had episodes of depression since I was 14. It would alternate with periods of extreme happiness where I drove too fast (15-20 speeding tickets and other driving infractions), and abused substances too much (rehab when I was 35). I haven't had an episode of hypomania in years, just that god awful depression. I do have periods where I feel good, sometimes really good, but I am always aware of that depression lurking just below the surface ready to grab me at any time.
I actually think I'm kind of sad about this as I always enjoyed the hypomania.
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I am about the same age. I turn 60 late this year. Last year about this time I was having a lot of hypomania but I had gone off meds for quite a while and just started back. The weird thing is when I first started taking lamictal, I had more hypomania than I have had in years but then it finally settled and I haven't had any since late last summer. I have had what feels like the start of it but then it doesn't progress. I used to be at least slightly depressed most of the time. For most of the last year, it has been less frequent and less severe. But I have been experiencing the low key sulk fairly often lately. But I am not sure whether it is depression making me feel down about getting older and realizing some things I wanted to do are not going to happen or whether it s me thinking about those things that is making me slightly depressed.
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|Up and down
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|Pink Floyd - Us and Them
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|bipolar II, substance use disorder, ADD
|lamictal, straterra
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