The story and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood. Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.

I was dx bpIl with gad back in 2005?
Then given the exciting news of liver chshit last year if I remember correctly..

Now I've been dx with avoidant personally disorder, just today.

I'm told with therapy (no meds) that I will spring back into action in time to undo the years of .."trauma"..everything I know about myself is gone. Decades. Good memories, all of it was 'fake'

I'm always honest with my docs and I would just like to die in excruciating circumstances because I'm not fit to live pain free. She wants to scan my brain...not a chance btw

This is not a cry for help, nor would I suggest suchlike behavior being unorganized. But exhausted, and not having the proper English tools to say what's on my mind.

They tricked me. They waited for the pain medicine to work before I could maintain a chain of "motivational" thought, speech and little amount of pain.

I lied. I told them everything they wanted to hear. Because let's face it, what's more important than wanting to finish yawning.

She must of spent no longer than an hour, doing an IQ test for an infant..like "draw a clock".. (not gp)

Now they think I'm fine with out illicit drugs. And need to "restructure" my thoughts..

I've tried going sober, giving up drugs, you name it. But why do they think that a change now will make a difference? The progress has been all me. Not even the oxy was to die for..I've had better.

I don't think I'm feeling sorry for myself. They (20-30) of them (I'm told) are going to decide my fate soon. 3 weeks in a one sitting conference, to compare notes I guess.

I suck at confrontations. And I said I was going to get private psyc and she told me the we're private!

They aren't. They all work under the same government umbrella.

They have made me lose touch with my plans, ideas and My self driven motivation. Lists all thrown away...for now

I just want to be treated like a patient, not a war criminal.

Advice, relate, anything but go ahead and kill yourself, would be comforting. I may have mentioned a temporary weed medicinal use for oxycodone withdrawals.

coding with drawers

So far I've stumbled across an article that was staring me right in the face. I don't relate. I did threaten there's nothing genuine about how they conduct business.

I just need proper representation, because not by the doctors fault, just that many have abused the system and.. oh well. Not my problem.

tl;dr

https://psychcentral.com/disorders/a...lity-disorder/

I have a non intravenous (rec) drug history and haven't been out of line in over 20 years. But they won't let that go...

Have a nice day [emoji4]