hey V.o i think i'm feeling your pain also i have been betrayed by both doctors and lawyers. now i basically hate people. when you get betrayed by the professionals who else can you trust ? i'm so tired of telling my story it makes me sick to even think about it again. the way i have come to see it is, these people on here are offering suggestions but if they dont feel the pain like you or i they can not relate ? i have been looking for people or a support group without any success. i did'nt look for you bio age or what drugs you took how long. these drugs were nasty to me and the doc almost killed me. i dont know why i'm still here. i'm so filled with anger and resentment i would fight king kong or the devil himself i basically dont give a **** because it seems ? no its fact no one cared enough about me. its all about the money. thats all they cared about. i hate talking on here because if people hav'nt experienced it themself its hard to relate to and feel the pain. i myself i'm tired of living. i just cant enjoy life anymore. i wish i was telling you this in person maybe i dont know how to put it ? you could absorb it better ? like i said i'm so tired of telling it because theres those that think if you talk about it ? it will help. i say ********. i hat psychiatry and i hate pills. people tell me i should find God i think you have to be wired a certain kind of way ?not me. i'm me and thats the way it is if you like me fine if you dont get the F away from me. anyway they ruined me and it sounds like you also. i feel your pain no doubt.you know that song 'point of no return by Kansas thats the way i feel about life now. what you mention about you doc not wanting to hear bad things about other doc's why bother then. enough rambling for now it just tears me up thinking, thinking,thinking