(((((((((((ev))))))))))))))))
I hope it is ok that i respond - the last post of mine you responded too, I think i wasn't clear and hope i didn't offend you. It's been on my mind for 2 weeks or so.

I agree with everyone in here - there is no way you could have been a slut - not then, not now.

On the flip side, i too, know that word well. my dad (abuser) often referred to me as a slut, would trow coins at me, say afwul comments to me if i took off a sweatshirt and had on only a tank top.... even if i looked nice he'd find some comment like "doing your slut walk?" It is very hard to get that from one's parents. especially when it is the parents that are sexualizing their kids. we are only a product of them. But we don't have to stay that way.

Ev, we are really innocent. i have to believe that or this night will be total cr*p. we didn't have any say really.
i hope you're ok out there.
safe hugs to you if you want them.
kiya