Yeah, it’s probably morbid to think about but my ghost would be cringing if other people read some of what I wrote. That’s a good idea, just save the ones with happy memories. It doesn’t have to be all or nothing... I will prob rip out some stuff I can’t bear to get rid of and put it in my scrapbook and then burn the rest.

I do want to start writing regularly again though- I used to write almost on a daily basis. I do think it helps at the time but maybe isn’t meant to be reread. Idk. I think just tossing them in the trash seems wrong though. So burn them I shall!

I have a lot of half full journals, I have a habit of buying a new journal every new year, it’s like I don’t want last years crappiness to somehow taint the new year so I need a new book to fill that doesn’t mix with my thoughts from the previous year. It’s silly but I feel like when I restart journaling I don’t want my old thoughts to give off their bad juju onto my new ones. Clean pages means possibilities of better days. I also write myself a message inside every journal to my future self that it will get hettter and whatever I do, do not kill myself. So I’m not sure I’d want anyone else to read that either.

I don’t think I will look them over one last time before burning until I am in a better frame of mind Tho. So hopefully nothing happens to me between now and a few months from now.
Have a good nite.