I’ve felt out of control all day. I feel like I have 2 people’s thoughts running through my head at the same time. One is very depressed, is very focused on self injury, feels confused, and hopeless. It was so bad I si at work today. The other person is sort of functioning, getting through the work day, etc. Then overall, I have this exhaustion looming over me making me feel weary and almost ill.

The depressed side feels like it’s winning if that makes any sense. I feel out of control overall. Is this what instability feels like?

I don’t know what this is or where it’s coming from. I see my therapist and pdoc Thursday.