This is sort of a rant since I don't know if anything can be done...

My boyfriend more or less told me that if he had gotten the job that he interviewed at recently, he would have married me and would have used his benefits to pay for my education to get a better job. Of course, he loses it apparently to some relative nobody with no real world experience.

He's applied to every relevant job in the country but hasn't been able to get a full time permanent job. This is unfortunately common for what he wants to do. I don't make enough at this point to support two people and I need to go back to school to be able to do that so we could have another couple years before we could afford to move our relationship forward.

The reason this is hitting me harder is I found out today that yet another one of my coworkers is engaged and getting married. Another coworker had a baby earlier this year. I want to have the choice whether I have children or not, but I may be too old at that point...

It's just worse because we've been in therapy to address each of our baggage and the communication issues that have arisen because of it and have a strong and healthy relationship that keeps improving with each therapy session. I would even say that our relationship is more or less like other people's ideal relationships described on here (yes, I read more than I post, sorry). But no, we can't move forward because of economic reasons.

I just hope that no one judges me or tells me to go marry someone with money instead. My mom did that and that was the only positive about him. He will have quite a bit of money when he lands a permanent full time job. It's just very difficult to get the first job.