Number 1, I am a 43 year man. Number 2, I have had my fair share of relationships. For some reason or another I cannot shake this one. It has been at least three months since we have even seen each other. We had email conversations about two weeks ago but holy hell, the things we said to each other to hurt the other is unbelievable. Certainly not mature.

Something tell me we had something special and the devil came in and wedge his *** in and destroyed it. We both are believers in Christ.......newly again getting on the track of church and what not. But something just tells me Satan saw something God was creating and he came in and neither of us were strong enough to avoid the devils temtaptions of the things we knew would hurt the other the most.

Some of you may have read the other thread I have, I just cant get this out of me for some reason. I have never had this much trouble letting someone go. It is so crazy I am still hurting the way I am over this. There was something with this one that there never was with anyone else, dont know what it was but it was special.

I am not a bad looking man by any means, I have an excellent career, have anything and everything to offer in a relationship however I cant get this one to shake loose for some reason. I just cant grasp it and recently been diagnosed with congestive heart failure and it is like it means nothing to this woman, no concern, no care, not even inquisitive about it in any way.

Some things in life just aren’t meant to be understood I suppose/