Dear T,
I hope you've given some thought to what I said in the e-mail--particularly the part about feeling ashamed and dirty. And also the stuff about you seeming very uncomfortable with transference, like I have cooties or something. I need you to comprehend the effect your words had on me and why I'm uncertain about continuing therapy with you. How you are and what you say today will probably play a big role in that decision. (Note: Most people who read my account of session think I should just leave...so it's not just me having irrational doubts.)

And I think it goes without saying that you'll get your stone back--it feels tainted now. You'll likely say I can keep it, but I need to say no. Even if that tears me apart. Because it doesn't represent what I thought it represented, so whatever sort of power it had is gone now. Maybe someday, if you reflect on it enough and understand, you can give me a new one...

--LT