I've been wondering for a while if my parents are emotionally abusive, but I'm not sure if they are or if I'm just too sensitive. Apologies for the long post, but I'm not sure where else to go.

The main problem I have is that they invalidate my feelings a lot, especially when I try to tell them about my mental health issues. When I've been suicidal in the past, it feels like telling them just makes things worse - I've been called a brat, irresponsible, selfish, things like that because I have a tendency to be more suicidal when things happen like I'm doing worse in school and have to catch up to all of it. They tell me I just need to be responsible and don't listen when I try to express that I'm just too overwhelmed. When I tried to tell them I think I have BPD and explain to them why I think so, it was brushed off immediately. My parents refuse to take me to a therapist anymore because, according to my step dad, I'll go there and lie and convince the therapist that I "see aliens in my room at night".

Last time I told him that I had needed to call the suicide prevention hotline, he told me that he should be the one calling because my behavior was so distressing to him; when I asked him if I actually made him want to die, he said that no, of course I don't, because he knows how to deal with problems. And my mom gets angry at me for picking at my skin too much, even though she does the exact same thing. They refuse to believe that I'm being honest about the things that are going on in my head and that means I'm entirely unable to get the professional help I know I need.

Then, when I try to confront them about their behavior, and tell them that what they're doing is harmful, it gets turned around so that I'm the one who's treating everyone else so horribly. It's gotten to the point where I'm starting to believe the things they say: that I'm just a brat doing everything for attention, which just makes me feel worse. Am I just being unreasonable, or am I actually being mistreated? And am I allowed to be upset over the way I'm being treated?