I'm having pain flare-up in my remaining hip, which is partially dislocated. I've been feeling like death warmed over for the past few days.

No sign of a pain clinic, in fact, one of them may have lost my file so we may have to start all over again.

My mental health nurse tells me not to talk about surgery, since I won't be having it, I shouldn't think about having that hip taken out.

Well, maybe I should have it taken out if things go on like this!

And Doug going through some trouble and I'd like to give him some support. I AM WORSE THAN USELESS IN THIS CONDITION! I can barely concentrate on anything else, save how much it hurts. I was worse than useless before, well now it's worse.