He started out asking about the state testing last week. He seemed genuinely excited when I told him my students did better than expected. He seemed even more excited I didn't engage in SH after our last session.

Talked about Sunday a bit. Said I still grieved the lack of relationship with my bio mom. He asked how I felt in my body talking about all of it. I said I was struggling to sit still. "Okay, so don't then." I paced around his shoebox office for a few minutes while we talked more about mom. Also talked about agency before I sat down. "Thats right," he said. "You aren't trapped."

He asked about the antidepressant. I said I hadn't noticed anything aside from being sleepy on Saturday. He seemed to look up the med, because he said he'd never heard of it last week and this week said, "well it's an SSRI so it'll take a few weeks to notice any difference."

He said that I was doing well. That he's seen growth. I compared therapy to losing weight. Perhaps I'm the last person to see it. I said i felt miserable that an antidepressant is necessary. Then said, "no, I'm doing what I need in this period of my life to take care of myself."

He said he loved that statement. How it's just further evidence of growth. He said he felt like we're ready to move onto EMDR. First there are some things he wants to do. Today we did a "dry run." It was okay. That took up basically the rest of the session.

There was one moment where he mentioned CSA, in a "we should be mindful of this" way. He said I reacted to its mention. It's because I actively try not to think about it. It's real, but far away. For him to make that statement so matter of fact startled me. "Did you find my statement to be dismissive? I hope not." I said it wasn't.

Took me a couple extra minutes to settle down to leave. He mentioned he's going on vacation in July as I paid. I said last year was hard when ExT went on vacation since it's my not busy month. He made a note and said we can try to schedule right before he leaves and right when he gets back.

I like him.