I write... and when that isnt enough I unfrotunately turn to self destructive ways... I try to get help before I reach that point b/c I fear my limits with go too far... And sometimes I go outside scream and find some branches and break away.. sounds odd but for it works sometimes...

Not sure when it will end, if ever... but I have hope and they are getting better.. as I gain more insight and knowledge of myself and see/feel the onset of trouble within myself...

(((((hugs)))))))))