I'm constantly barraged with thoughts of things I've done wrong in my life, embarrassing situations I got myself into, & ways in which I failed to live up to the image I once had of who I was. It literally never ends! Meditation & mindfulness are things I've had a longstanding interest in & that I've tried to pursue. But it's SO DIFFICULT when I'm constantly under attack... by myself! I try to tell myself that it won't even be that long & I'll be dead (I'm approaching 70 years old!) And then none of this will make one bit of difference... to me or to anyone else for that matter. Sometimes this realization even works... for about a minute or so! But then I'm right back to being swamped by all of my negative, self-abusive thoughts. I hope that, in some way, you will be able to find a path to deep peace in your life...