I have started meditation.I struggle with anxiety and social anxiety I fear embarrassing myself when around people especially strangers or people I am just getting to know.I look back though and things have been a lot worse due to being abused by my narcissist sister I was agoraphobic for nine years back in the 90's,so even though things get bad I know they can be and have been a lot worse.Nowdays as I get older I lack physical energy and stamina and I have chronic physical illness like diabetes 2 and hypothroidism and sleep apnea I am always tired.I am trying to lose weight and get fit.It is hard.

I think The Realer Boss you need to stop mixing with that girl that laughs at you when you assert your needs ,she can't be good for your confidence and self esteem ,you need to show people that do that that you won't put up with them.You can be free and make friends that treat you like you deserve to be treated with respect,and not ignore you when you assert your rights.Next time you assert yourself make it clear what the consequences are if your friend ignores you tell her you will end your relationship with her and follow through then people will respect you more.