I agree, but like Laurie, I'm not sure we can discuss this topic on the forum. I will say this: While in the military and during the Cold War, I spent nine months in the former Soviet Union as a prisoner. I have internal and external scars that will last a lifetime. Every day I promised myself that if I still wanted to commit suicide tomorrow, I could do it then. Power in an otherwise powerless situation, control in a situation in which I had no control. That permission I gave myself kept me alive.