I'm new here. Been married 10 years, we currently have only our 9 yr old daughter living with us full time. Here's the problem : I'm a mess! He made some mistakes and went to prison for a year. He came home March 5th this yr. Saying it was hard while he was away is a huge understatement! I couldn't maintain the lifestyle we had and support him in jail (money on books, phone, visits, etc) so I lost our home. My daughter & I moved in with my brother. I did my best to keep my daughter busy to keep her mind occupied. I HAD to be sure she was ok! She is still in therapy. I guess I put myself on the back burner. But now he is home and the only place we have to stay together is with his sister who isn't the best human in the world! She likes the men a bit much (I hate all the different men in & out with my girl here!), I know she's on drugs I just can't prove it. She has a very colorful past, in & out of jail her entire adult life. Basically, not someone I want around my child. But we can't find a place to rent. Anyway, I'm either mad or sad or something is ALWAYS bothering me! I look in the mirror and don't know the person looking back at me. Maybe I have resentment cause he left us and I had to hold everything together. We had 50/50 joint custody of his two teen boys before he left, now we are lucky to see them every other weekend. I have become a bitter person and we fight daily!!! Also not something I want our daughter seeing! I'm going to schedule myself an appointment tomorrow when I take my girl to therapy but in the meantime my husband and I are quickly becoming strangers. I don't know what to do. He really is a good man, he deserves to be happy! I have told him to go be happy with someone else because I can't make myself or anyone else happy lately. He told me tonight he misses me..... The woman he married! Well, so do I! I don't know what happen or how to fix it but I am so sick of all the negativity in myself & that I bring everyone around me. I'm here just searching for people in similar situations, looking for guidance, support, and help! Thanks for having me and allowing me to vent. There is so much more but this is basically it.... I'm miserable in my own skin and I'm making my husband (& daughter) miserable as well!!!