Thanks Rap - I will work on remembering that I won't always have to be in pain.
the past 24 hours have been full of sucide idation. I'm not planning anything and didn't even use the razor i was holding. i don't think i even slept last night - it was all just almost lusic dreaming of the various ways and how they might be accomplished.
i'm in a hard part of my diet right now - close to fasting (yes, this is medical with an MD). ANd one I'm not too happy about at the moment.
I'm trying to bully my brain into working on my paper due tomorrow. but all i want to do is sleep.
Hugs, Kiya