Never struggled with those concepts. Maybe because I worked hard as a kid to get the good grades I did I felt I earned every accomplishment I had.....that was my thinking as a child that had nothing to do with worthy just accomplishment.

Later in life now after so many bad things happened when I coukdn't make things go good I looked at the situation not me as being the isdue & it was way beyond my control & alwats qas turning out bad UNTIL I took back what felt was my control as soon as it was possible & left the situation. My look at life has always been logical not emotional but then I learned about mindfulness a few years ago & have been kearning to use both to make my decusions thoygh ligic always seems to win.

BUT there have been many things that have turned out amazing in my lufe that I have had no part in making happen except for making the issue known just in talking. I looked at the good results with thankfulness & in the past several years, look at it as God's provisions....being worthy or not has nothing to do with it....but thankfulness is huge.

Value does seem to be related to the things I do for others & the animals I have cared for but it is also experiencing that people value me & include me ibto activities. All my life I lived in environments that were left out because of the people in that environment though I didn't realize ut until I got out of those environmemts & got accepted for who I am. That was sure a huge thing to realize.