I'm currently considering going to my school counselor, or telling a teacher about the situation. It's just... difficult. As I've said before, I've sort of been conditioned to believe that I'm the one at fault, and while I know that that just gives all the more reason to tell someone, the doubt is a part of my psyche that I might not ever entirely get over.

I want to tell someone what's going on, but I'm so worried that things will just get worse. I was reading up on what happens when a case is reported to CPS, and it says that often the abusers are required to go to therapy or take parenting classes or something like that... It worries me, though, because my parents have occasionally "tried" to better themselves, but it made no lasting difference. I'm scared that they'll get better for a little bit if that happens, but go right back to how they act now...