I have a question - do you guys think that this abuse would count as trauma? It's hard for me to tell, since it's gone on for as long as I can remember, so I don't have any other standard to compare it to.

It has affected me, possibly permanently, because the fear of being annoying and constant feeling of being less worthy of love does interfere with my friendships and especially romantic relationships. I'll sometimes have these overwhelming feelings of inferiority, which I think might be emotional flashbacks, and I'll start apologizing to my boyfriend over every little thing and saying things like "please don't be mad at me". Then, even though he'll tell me that everything is okay, I feel even worse because I feel like all my apologizing is just making me seem even more annoying. I was brushed off or accused of lying a lot when I apologized to my parents, and still am...

I'm just not sure. I show symptoms of C-PTSD, but like I said, I don't feel like I have a proper sense of what does and does not count as trauma. I was never beaten or assaulted, so I don't know if my situation counts. I don't want to use a term that isn't accurate, or that makes it sound like things are more dramatic than they actually are.