Mostly OK, I think. In order: I'm still puzzled that he doesn't seem to comprehend what I mean by "feeling judged." It makes me wonder if he's never felt that (or shame) in his life...in which I'd consider him very lucky, very arrogant, very mentally healthy, or probably some mix of those. I suppose I'll attempt to explain again Monday (almost tempted to start a thread about it, like "how do I explain what 'feeling judged' means?")

Apparently he reflects on our sessions, which is good--though I'm not surprised he comes out of some with different impressions than me, especially as I might seem fine in there, but then start to get upset in the car or later than evening. I appreciate that he's willing to maybe tame his honest comments to me a bit for now at least.

I struggle with the "unhealthy" and "uncomfortable" stuff regarding transference. Especially since I shared that possibility from the start and he knew many details about the ex-MC stuff and have asked him repeatedly if he would be OK working with me if it developed. But in the e-mail, it seems like he's trying to look out for my best interests in not having me repeat what happened with ex-MC--because I certainly don't want that either. And he seems willing to work on his discomfort and try to meet me where I am. I just hope he can come through on that.

So what I just wrote probably doesn't sound like I'm "mostly OK" with it... But I guess it's not just about the words themselves, it's the sense I get that he's looking out for my welfare and that he wants to understand me better. He seemed to really be considering what I said and thinking about it, which means a lot. Especially since I don't think ex-MC really considered the effect some of what he did and said (and his unclear, shifting boundaries) had on me, until the end when it all blew up. So I'd rather have a T who is giving thought to such things and considering how what he's doing will affect his client. Even if he's not giving me all the answers I want (and even though part of me wished he had said I could have the stone back...)