The strange thing here is sometimes, it feels like I'm only faking the unrequited crush to myself in order to hide from my issues. But also, it feels like it's real at the same time, and I know so because I would not mope over that guy if the feelings weren't real. Also, BTW, I used to have this issue that I thought I had to exaggerate/or fake crushes in order to um, I dunno if this makes sense, but I actually used to exaggerate crushes to myself in order to feel like less of a slut, like, I wanted to hide from my real, trashy taste in guys. At the same time however, I wouldn't be moping if the feelings weren't real, eh?