Freewill
You had an extremely difficult life. I agree you didn't ask for any of it. You also didn't ask for the compassion that fills your body, soul & spirit. You didn't ask for the empathy you have shown to other victims, the thousands, you have helped, on PC alone(#2184 Posts!) You didn't ask for the kindness quality you possess that you have given to many others,qualities of understanding,patience,helpfulness,thoughtfulness,affection,your time & deep love you have been able to give because of your pain and anguish.You asked for none of these but you stood up coped, survived & helped humankind incredibly. That makes for quite a life, don't you think? You are Awesome Freewill!!