Thanks for your reply. I've read survivors healing stories when their abusers (parents) are living, I haven't read about survivors healing stories when abusers are deceased. I wanted to see how others feel in this situation.

My feelings get mixed up. My parents were my abusers and they are deceased. I almost feel guilty talking about them after they are gone. They are still controlling me from the grave. I'm still afraid of them. I feel like they are watching me. I know that can't be. I have a lot of hallucinations and hear my name being called. I know it's just the process.