I've been feeling super depressed but completely energized and unable to focus. I saw my doc today. She changed my meds. I cried in the parking lot afterwards because I know i'm bad off and i'm embarrassed to be so weak after having a relatively stable mood for years. Severe agitated depression sucks.

I am so tense and anxious 100 percent of the time. I could barely breathe i was so tense today. I took the klonopin like she asked me to and i think i feel it starting to work.

i will take my increased seroquel tonight before bed. I like being able to feel intense emotion but it's not good to stay in this state. Doc is worried about what my thoughts are about.

She did ask to see my new car so i was happy to show her my new electric baby.
I feel like telling people what i've done makes me accountable for what i've done.