My 14 y.o. has been making su statements at school so I've had him to the local psych hospital 2x for intake but he has not yet been admitted (spent several hours there yesterday). Today he and I went to talk to his t, and she wanted all three of us to talk for a bit, which turned into 30 minutes. I feel so raw trying to reach my son and tell him I know how loud and overpowering the depression voice can be while also trying to maintain my composure and not let him know how much it pains me to see him in such pain. This is all on top of my dealing with my own issues with my own t. After our 30 mins meeting with 14 y.o., t and me, since my kiddo wasn't talking, she sent him to the waiting room (it was empty) to write about his thoughts while she "checked in with mom."

I'm glad that she checked in with me. I was able to tell her how hard it was to hear my son talk about sui given my experiences with the topic. I feel relieved that she thinks he is just using words to get attention - like he'll make a threatening to self statement to a teacher, I get called in, I take him to the psych hosp, he says he doesn't want to go inpatient because he has plans with his friends this weekend (good friends).

It was weird to be weepy in front of his t, but then again, it isn't because I'm used to being weepy in front of t-type people.

My t had asked me to email me yesterday in response to the topic I am discussing, so I did but mentioned how I spend the afternoon (with son). She said she was sorry to hear about (son), and "I wish I could help." Ah - the challenge of interpreting a single line of email!

Anyhow, thanks for listening.