I've been hesitant to post because so many people are struggling and this may seem unfair.

I've thought I was a bit happy hypo which happens to me maybe once every 3 years and never lasts for more than a few days. This has and when I saw my pdoc she suggested this might be a normal mood.

I don't know what a normal mood is. If I ever had one it was 30 years ago as a child. I keep pondering and I just don't know. That I'm not going way up is something. I'm sick and using my nebulizer and more inhalers than usual and those things usually ramp me up; so far no problem except getting to sleep last night.

It's just so weird that this might be that longed for goal I gave up on long ago.