Took a break from Latuda tonight = No restlessness, no rushing inside or the feeling of being in front of that black hole, not knowing if I'll fall in or if it will gobble me. I hate that feeling and always try to work my way through it since it lasts 2-3 hours. Doctors tell me it's the best medicine for me. Family compliment me :"You sound so much better...". For the past few months, I have been feeling depressed to the bone like never before and feel dead inside. I guess it doesn't show when I talk on the phone. So this mood is how life is supposed to feel ? Life is going to be boring if I refer to this emotion. I wonder how I could adapt to being the way "they" want me to be.