Bizi, it's just so WEIRD. I've almost never topped mixed episode, moderate for more than a few weeks. This is what clozapine has given me but it is not a feeling I trust. (And I admit to having a list off meds I want off of but my pdoc knows and I will wait knowing she promises in fall (I get manic in late June-July and last year was really bad because of lowering a dose at the wrong time because I was doing pretty well).

I know it could change tomorrow but it's so weird to even think about.