I've noticed lately that I don't seem to find joy in social interactions. I feel way more sad and just don't really care as much now. After being hurt and ghosted out abruptly and for unknown reasons or even no reason through the years, I can tell I am becoming less willing for people to get too close to me now. I actually expect people to leave me eventually, and yes it always does hurt, I am always expecting it and used to it at the same time as well. I still socialize with people, but I don't find the joy in it as much since in the back of my mind, I know they will drop me eventually especially if they find something else better or someone else they like better. I feel sad a lot and other times I just feel emotionally numb, like I just simply don't care anymore.